My two feet grew on this piece of white and blue earth
but they were meant to walk a different city,
and they sent me across the ocean to breath new air.
I learn from the beginning
every sound, every smell, every taste,
how to move around me.
I lost a mother, a friend, a lover
I waved goodbye
I said I’ll come back.
However, my feet forgot
the city lights blurred all memories
they erased my past.
I built myself piece by piece
a new castle.
I forgot how unpredictable the sand is
and how brutal the waves tear everything apart.
They wipe out each sign of my existence
I’m left alone to put myself back together
creating new paths
drawing new suns
like a small child
innocent but broken inside.
I tell lies, hide the old me, put space between us,
I run away from different lines
try to make my own rules
still, I land with a thud.
I kick hard to lift the burdens of my former self.
I scream yet no one hears
I feel like a fraud.